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Liar

by JustMakeMeCry

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1.
Three Months 02:06
2.
Why am I so tired? I think I cried too much last night. My eyes burn like a match, And my head feels so tight. Why do I ache so bad? I think I blacked out in the hall. My wrist feels out of place, Nothing but tile broke the fall. Won't you come back and tell me, that this was all just a bad dream? That we're still in bed, and we're still asleep? Why does my throat burn so much? I think I couldn't stop throwing up. My pill bottles are all empty, I just hope that you still love me. How did I even get here? I think I called my parents last night. They're sleeping in the living room, I'm sure they still love me, am i right? Won't you come back and tell me, that this was all just a bad dream? That we're still in bed, and we're (fast)still asleep.
3.
What does it feel like to lose everything? Everything is disappearing right in front of me. Feelings are often lost along the way, I still have time so it's okay. Hurry before the train takes off, And leaves us behind to get caught. I don't wanna miss it all again, There's too much I never said. Like I'm sorry. Why does it have to feel this way? Everyone swore that I would be okay. I'm so sick of swallowing pills, If you don't hurt me then I know this will. Hurry before the ship departs, And it leaves us to fall apart. I know I'll miss it all again, There's so much that I never said. Like I'm so so sorry.
4.
Winter '16 03:55
I'm so high on the feeling, Of never feeling again. Maybe I won't come down, Until I get out of bed. How long do I have to wait, Until waiting doesn't work? Cause no matter what I do, Everything seems to hurt. So sad to see this go. Where am I going? I'm low enough to see through, Right through the sentiments. 'We sure hope you get better,' Is as empty as my wrists. Who do you think you are, Telling me to calm down? Cause no matter what I say, You'll never know what I'm talking about. The thrill is not knowing, If you'll survive the binge. Wake up the next morning, in bed or in a ditch. So sad to see this go. Where am I going again? I'm so high on the feeling, Of never feeling again.
5.
May the sun shine on you today, As I drown myself in the rain. Dreaming of a big house in Maine, Taking shots of whiskey to kill the pain. I'm still waiting for a sign, Throw away this love of mine. Saying hello is a waste of time, Sitting alone outside. May the moon glow on you tonight, As I pull out this sharp knife. Hoping that this choice was right, The blood is pouring oh what a sight. I'm still waiting for a sign, Lock away this love of mine. I'll waste all my time, I don't mind you saying good night. Polyester and cotton sheets, Try to stop the bleeding. I just need to rest my feet, I know you'll come to get me. May God bless you through the years, You won't shed any more tears. Let go of all your fears, Oh I promise I'm still here.
6.
Peach Tree 03:43
I am your mighty, You can take it all out on me. Cause you don't know sympathy, And I don't know safety. I am yours rightly, You can take it all out on me. Cause all you know is apathy, And I should know safety. Tell me what you think. I'll love you kindly, And you can take it all out on me. Cause I know sympathy, But I don't know safety.
7.
Youth 02:50
I would say that you look healthy, But I'd be lying if I said you did. Your skin is getting pale, And your face is getting thin. There was only so much that I could do, To keep you full and vibrant. Even after everything it wasn't enough, I have no choice but to stay silent. I would say that you look happy, But I'd be lying if I said I thought that. The circles under your eyes, Are getting darker with ever laugh. There was only so much I could say, To make you feel safe. But my actions never spoke louder than words, It's not my decision to make. I would say that you look happy, I would say that you look healthy, I would say that you look lovely, But I can't keep lying.
8.
3-27 03:00
I can't lie alone anymore, I've taken to sleeping on the floor. I don't even lock the door, Cause maybe you're just bored. I can't eat much anymore, I don't even bother to go to the store. I've been spending most of my time indoors, Trying not to hurt any more. (Don't let me hurt anymore) I don't have to talk do I? I don't wanna open my eyes, Every time I do I cry, I just want the months to go by. I know I feel but should I? How come you just can't lie? Tell me everything is alright, Tell me everything is just fine. Tell me I'm alright.
9.
It's hard to tell where this all began, I don't know where to start. I feel like I've always been this way, I've always been falling apart. I know it seems like I'm overreacting, And I always take things to heart. I can't help it if everything hurts, They'll ask me if I'll do it I say I won't. I won't It's hard to convey the feelings I have, I don't where the hell to start. It feels like it's always been this way, My mind is tearing me apart. But if you actually wanted to help, You would've listened from the start. I can't take it everything hurts. Don't ask me if I'll do it cause I won't I won't Do you really wanna know? Come on I'll show you. But you don't
10.
VERSE I'm always the last one to leave, But always the first one to see. The handprints on the walls, Like you never wanted to be here. This party isn't my thing, And I know it yours either. If you want I can walk you home, I know you don't live far from here. CHORUS But I'm always home, You don't have to be alone. VERSE I'm always the last one to stand, But the first one to fall. I can create a world in my head, When things go wrong. This night isn't my night, And I know its not yours either, If you can could you walk me home, I really don't want to be here.
11.
Six Months 02:53
The world feels so hazy, Am I going crazy? I think I'm disassociating, From all the drugs inside of me. I'm so high on the feeling, Of never feeling again. The oxygen is so sweet, I still cant get out of bed. In a few months where will I be? Its getting difficult to see. In a few months where will I be? I know you could always surprise me.

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The main thing I wanted to accomplish with this album was to somehow convey what I've been feeling within these last few months. Things haven't been the easiest, but I am grateful for the ability to express myself through songwriting.

This may not be the easiest album to listen to out of the other ones I've made so far, but making this helped me get through a weird low point in my life. I hope it can somehow do the same thing for you. <3

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released April 16, 2017

written, performed, and produced by Dairrien Call

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Non-Critically acclaimed Dweebpop act.

(Formerly known as FTFWTO)

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