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New Arcadia

by JustMakeMeCry

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1.
Trapped in a sun stained room With nothing but the walls and windows Holding me back from jumping Straight into it's arms I promise it's possible to ignore The fact that we're all fragile Sweep your conscience under the rug Along with the blood and the bile. it's a cinematic masterpiece You'll see when i fade it in Please don't catch me while im falling Try to ignore it if you can I promise it's not impossible To believe that there's purpose for this Keep your thoughts to yourself But only if you wanna be missed You'll only sleep when the sun comes up When you're awake idk where you'll be You'll only sleep when the sun comes up I wish you'd tell me when you leave You'll only sleep when the sun comes up When you're awake idk who you'll be You'll only sleep when the sun comes up I wish you'd say something to me
2.
Kiss me like you do your bathroom mirror, When you stumble in half asleep. Breath stained with alcohol, Afraid everyone will leave. Touch me like you do your bedroom walls, When you can't hold yourself up. Lungs burn with smoke, And your shirt is stained with blood. There goes another one. Hold me like you do your body pillow, When you can't stop yourself from crying. Head pounding like a drum, And you think everyone is lying. Fuck me like you do to yourself, When no one else is around. Fingers grasping at the sheets, Do you feel better now? There goes another one. Kiss me like you do to your friends, When you're feeling alright. Share a couple of drinks, I promise you're gonna be okay tonight.
3.
Porcelain 03:35
A sharp flick of the wrist, And everything goes dark. A quick jerk of the tongue, And I can make you feel warm. Shell-shocked with locked knees, We can feel it underneath. Layers of worn out muscles, And skin under our sleeves. You're such a doll, You're all I want. You're such a doll, For you I'd fall. (Over and over) A crown made of razorwire, And a white t-shirt for your troubles. A bracelet made of angel wings, I've made for you from the rubble. A tiny porcelain heart, Constructed from pieces of mine. An hour glass made from my bones, So you can keep my time. You're such a doll, You're all I want. You're such a doll, For you I'd fall. (Over and over)
4.
Steep drop off losing inspiration It's not like you to dwell on these decisions Maybe sleep like your world aint on fire Meeting standards just to skate thru this Cop a smile no one will notice When the sinking feeling hits you hard I'm content with being codependant On so many of these medications My doctor told me I shouldnt worry That's why I've been so damn patient Between drug abuse and sleep deprivation More excuses lead to medications Im not sure how you're alive be careful dont be a liar Leave everything dont forget your lighter Nothing matters as long as im high I find comfort inside this addiction I know It's my fault that's why i dont listen My mind is made up there's no reason for me to care As long as im fine all is forgiven I'm not cold-hearted I just don't get this, My friends are worried all of them can see it I don't understand It's all prescribed to me It helps me escape from my reality. Steep drop off losing inspiration It's not like me to dwell on these decisions Oh man my world is on fire
5.
New Arcadia 04:36
Sleep it's only sleep What else do ya have left to lose? except for your mind and the ones with good news If your life goes up in flames what will you do? Fuck everyone in your county Just so you can feel used Its all so empty This town feel so hollow I have everything that I could want But lord I'm so alone Time it's only time What else do ya have to lose? Except for opportunities That never follow thru And if this heart goes up in flames What will I do? Fuck up all of my relationships So there's nothing to lose Its all so empty This world is so hollow I have everything that I could want But lord I'm so alone I know im only human but is that an excuse? To wake up knowing I could stop all the abuse I know I'm only human but is that an excuse? To keep the guilt trip going whenever I refuse
6.
WDIFSG 05:34
I'm a slave to you Chained Let me sleep Why do I feel so guilty?
7.
I'm So Alone 04:05
Im so alone im so alone Won't you please pick up your phone I'm so sad it's not that bad If you want i can call back Im so alone im so alone Won't you please answer the phone I'm holed up oh it's messed up But please dont ever give up on me    ' Im so alone, im so alone, im sorry you came when no one was home I was hiding away, hiding away please come back another day This cant wait, this cant wait, i dont know how much more of this I can take Its getting late, so very late, promise me next time maybe you'll stay I'm so alone I'm so alone I'm sitting here listening to the dial tone Paying with time and wasted cologne I'm sitting here wondering where did you go? I'm so alone I'm so alone Maybe its luck to always hear that tone Maybe it's fate I always seem to strike out And can't get a break   
8.
He's gonna find you like he found me too He's gonna find you like he found me too you make a simple mistake and its all gone in a day you make a simple mistake and everyone goes away Another night where i dont sleep Another secret they cant keep They're gonna find you like they found me too They're gonna find you like they found me too I made a simple mistake And they took everything away I made a stupid mistake and everyone goes away Another night where i dont sleep Another secret they cant keep Another morning left awake I don't know how much more i can take
9.
Safety Hymn 02:29
The moon and the stars will dance for you No need to worry it's what you gotta do Everyone knows how much you love them Don't be afraid to be yourself they've Read about everything you've ever done Everyone knows how much you care for them Your family knows exactly where you're going They don't resent you they'll see you soon Everyone knows how much you've done for them The lights will go down it'll be time for bed You'll have your privacy for your eternal rest Everyone knows how much you meant to them
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about

I don't have too much to say about the album itself, except that I really hope you all enjoy it. I spent a few months wrecking my vocal cords, straining my hearing, and nearly driving myself insane to get everything near where I wanted it to be. It's nowhere near perfect, but I am incredibly proud of the finished product.

Big thank you to Filip, and Z Tapes, for taking a chance on me. I have been following the label for years, and It's like a dream come true to finally be able to work with them. 💕

And another big thank you to everyone who has supported me throughout this 5 year journey. Everything I've done has brought me to this point, and no matter how piss-poor my health may be, I'll always try my best to keep pushing forward with my music.

I know the present is incredibly uncertain right now, but may the future hold beautiful things for every single one of you. I love you all, please be safe out there. ❤️

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released June 20, 2020

Written, Performed, and Produced by JustMakeMeCry

Lyrics/Vocals for I'm So Alone by JMMC, Kelsey Maclean, and Sam Dorsey

Electric piano & organ for They're Gonna Find You by Brian Hartman

Lead Guitar on Prescribed Happiness by Eric Heile

Mixed and "Mastered" by JMMC

"Reaper Cherub" designed by Kelsey Maclean

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Non-Critically acclaimed Dweebpop act.

(Formerly known as FTFWTO)

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